A piece for piano, written on 11th January 2017 with a view on a snow- and ice-covered landscape.
This is a live recording of my instrumental 95 played in a sunlit lounge as part of my rehearsals. The song is part of my album Love and Passion which you find here.
I wrote this little tune the morning after I had the pleasure of attending a Tommy Emmanuel show in Groningen, NL. I really like Tommy’s compositions, which to me are far more interesting than his virtuoso playing style.
As befits the lyrics, writing this music really had me busy for months. This song apparently had to mature for three years. I am glad that it is finally done. It also marks the next step in my singing: Never before have I felt comfortable using my voice in this way in a rock/metal context.
During this past year I have lost my ear for music twice for long periods of time. Now I am back again and as always I will try to hang on to it forever and never lose it again. I have a feeling that I might finally succeed.
Together with my good friend and metal artist Andrea Christen I released this song as a collaborative piece with her artwork The Trophy:
We had sex to the music of Lake of Tears. Frequently. The Scandinavian band entered my life in the middle of the 90s and is one of the few influences from the period to stay with me. They are part of my musical DNA. If Forever Autumn was a straightforward metal album I would probably add it to my list of the three best metal albums of all times. But it is different. Its style haunted me for so long that it integrated into my music as an explicit influence.
And so the song title Lake of Tears was born. A song in which I planned to pay tribute to this versatile, great band and also to somehow summarize what I hear in their music. But I am incapable of straight imitation. And so, of course, things turned out differently.
There is an intense connection between my lyrics in this song and the band, one that by far surpasses the title. It is most evident in the refrain which reflects my high regard for the unique mood Daniel Brennare and his bandmates reliably transfer me into.
This song has been new ground for me on many levels and I worked on the production a lot to figure things out. It turned out very differently from what I expected and I am still not sure whether I really like it. Time will tell. I still need to grow as a musician. Grow so very much.
Nevertheless I would like to share this with you.
Parts of this instrumental track started out as a kind of study and then merged into this track about seasons. Some parts of it remind me of the track Tristram from the very first Diablo game.
This song is dedicated to my dear friend Heinrich in Cape Town, South Africa. Writing and recording it was a blast. I hope you will enjoy listening as much.
The unique Chocolate Cream Song is my tribute to the supremely delicious food that is chocolate cream. Made of only an avocado, a banana, some cocoa powder and a pinch of salt it is easy to make, healthy, tasty and also paleo, vegan, raw, vegetarian, dairy-free, gluten-free… oh food can be so much these days. Let’s keep it simple: Chocolate Cream is delicious.
And here is the song with an animated video:
Here’s the audio only:
Success is relative.
And yet our society shares a generalized, very narrow and absolute definition of making it which usually only involves the dimensions of accumulated wealth, social class and fame. Thousands of famous and rich stars who just can not get their lives sorted out clearly show the fallacy of this thinking. Frequent divorces, unhappiness und drug addiction seem nothing worth striving for and are certainly not signs of true success. Most of those unlucky stars will agree. Not even from their own point of view have they achieved success.
A girl managing to keep her promise to run five miles every day has made it. An elderly woman who finally learns to speak a foreign language has made it. They both are truly successful. Only the individual can define success. Furthermore the individual must define success. If you do not know where exactly you want to go you will never know when you get there (but mind you, you can be happy without a specific goal).
To relate this to music: Many musicians dream of making it in the music industry. Which is a vague dream. It usually seems to involve getting some kind of record company to take advantage of you and taking your rights from you in exchange for a measly share of what they define as profit in the form of money, the value of which is fleeting and questionable.
If that is your definition of making it, you might want to reconsider. Think about the fate of people like Jaco Pastorius. Was he successful? He is famous, he is a bass legend. But was he sucessful? Did he make it?
It is vital for you as a musician to ask these questions, to ask where you actually want to go yourself. I spent years practicing the guitar in order to improve my technique to play faster. I never set this goal for myself. Improving technique is just ingrained in our instrumental training culture, particularly on the electric guitar. After six years of lessons I realized that I did not care at all about speed and technique. What fascinated me was composition. From that moment on I was no longer a guitarist but a musician who happened to play mainly the guitar and I picked up the piano again and started to play the drums and sang and wrote a lot more songs. That is where my success started.
Think about the millions of lightning fast guitarists who are unhappy and still have not made it even by their own definitions. Put that in perspective while looking at the many technically sloppy or slow guitarists who are considered successful and revered the world over like Keith Richards or BB King. They, in turn, might consider themselves unsuccessful.
Success, clearly, is not universally embodied by money, fame, involvement with the music industry or technical prowess. Instead it is multi-dimensional and individual. Success is subjective. You can and you will succeed precisely when you achieve your goal.
Thus, you can only be successful if you know what your goal is. In order to make it you need to define what that means to you.
Success starts in your head and ends there. Therefore I will write about finding your making it in my next post: Strategies for guaranteed success.
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Making it as an artist is simple. Based on my experience in the games industry, as a self-publishing author and as a musician I am writing this series to help other artists achieve success. This post tells a story not unusual for many artists.
22 years ago I took my first guitar lessons. Those had not been my first music lessons but it was the first time I knew that making music was going to be an essential part of my life.
I did not want to be a rock star, I did not care about girls melting at my feet or about being cool, whatever that means. I was just madly in love with music.
At that point I had already taught myself the basic chords. It took just an hour and showed me how easy things are when your priorities are set. The following years I spent most of my spare time with a guitar in my hands and playing like a maniac (I just dug up recordings from that time).
22 years ago I was a kid. Which made life even simpler. The only significant duty you have hereabouts is going to school. Guitar and music and school were all I needed to take care of.
Then school ended and things got complicated. Making a living comes into play and opportunities arise and you get confused. I clung to music for years after that but finally gave in and got a proper job freelancing in the video games industry (if you can call that proper in the 2000s). Fascinating, those things called career and work and colleagues and financial pressure: They pushed the guitar to a cobwebbed corner of my life out of which it only slowly made its way back into my life. I kept playing, but rarely and with little thought. And yet I learned vital lessons about creative work. Lessons that without my knowing then would help my success as a musician.
Several years later the games industry bored me and I quit and became a successful self-publishing author. I did not actually plan this. It just happened and it, as well, is quite an exciting, albeit labour-intensive job. Music slowly returned and I found out that I am not really a guitarist but a musician who happens to play mainly the guitar. As a self-publisher I learned many more crucial things about creative work and how to make a living from it.
The greatest love of my life came back with full force at some point in early 2012 and coerced me into writing and recording an album, finishing one song per month. That turned out to become the monster called Blood and Souls.
Two years later I followed that with another album, Love and Passion.
Both were and are successful albums. That is why the title of this post is misleading: In many ways I have already made it as a musician.
Making it is a vague term and I will explore that in detail in my next post. Let us for now agree that the definition of making it depends on your perspective.
As a devoted lover of music I take making it, first and foremost, literally: I have made it as a musician because I keep making music. I compose, I play, I learn. I have failed in the past. Even between Blood and Souls and Love and Passion I have sometimes failed. I will continue to fail from time to time.
But if I were to draw a graph between 1994 and 2016 you would only see a steep drop from 2003 to 2005, a steady increase until 2007 and a dramatic surge back in 2012. We all live through these highs and lows. They key lies in not quitting.
So making it as an artist, in the most general sense, is very simple. You need to make art to make it. It is incredible how many talented musicians already fail at this stage because they expect music, money or fame to just flow their way. But making music is work. Success is not in sitting at home and complaining about the state of the music industry.
Of course there are more specific definitions of making it and success. Those I will explore in my next post in this series.
My experience as a creative professional tells me what I need to do in order to accomplish my goal and I am going to share this knowledge with you. It really is quite simple. Most of the time it is not easy, though.
With many of you I share the desire to spend most of my time just making music. I want to write and play and record and perform and share my music. I am closer than ever before to that goal, yet not fully there.
But I am going to make it.
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